Tomorrow I will not go to my children’s awards assemblies at school. They are both winning academic awards and neither my husband nor I can make it there. We have the kinds of jobs that make it hard to miss work without a lot of advanced notice.
Mommy guilt is a terrible thing. But today, I am choosing not guilty.
I am choosing not guilty because even though I work a lot, I love them, hug them, snuggle with them, feed them, and read to them every single day. And that’s enough.
I am choosing not guilty because I am pretty sure there is not a doubt in their minds that their daddy and I value their education. And that’s enough.
I am choosing not guilty because I tell them and show them how proud I am of them as often as I can. And that’s enough.
I am choosing not guilty because they have a great set of grandparents who will be the faces in the crowd for them tomorrow, taking pictures and being there to cheer for them. And that’s enough.
I am choosing not guilty because no matter what I do or even if I didn’t work, there would be times I couldn’t be there. But they know that even if I can’t be there, I am always there for them. And that is enough. I think I can even say that is more than enough.
I am choosing not guilty tomorrow.